It's not so much an addiction as it is a dependency. The constant urge to pull out my phone and check if there are any updates is always there. And it doesn't make me feel good. Generally, it leaves me feeling cynical, annoyed and inadequate. I waste far too much time peeking into other people's lives and the temptation for comparison is strong. So, starting today I'm giving up all social media.
I suspect that most people can recognize beauty, but wonder how many are truly grateful for it. Some call it stillness, others solitude. Many find the notion and practice too unsettling. How many cherish its intimacy? The need for solitude does not necessarily mean that one needs to be alone, though that is healthy at times. It is more about perspective, not only for the senses, but the deepest part of being.
The decision to leave a blog behind that I had worked on for seven years was a tough one. At its height, The Style Crusader was receiving thousands of visits a day and close to a hundred comments on each post. That kind of traffic and engagement didn't last though because I couldn't handle the expectation to be constantly connected. Knowing that so many people were peeking into my life everyday made me feel uncomfortable. The pace of trying to keep up with tracking everything I ate, wore, saw, felt on social media was overwhelming. Some people relish the exposure. I didn't.